Love me, dammit!!

Love me, dammit!!

OR, instead of sleeping, I could cut my hair off because I’m sick and tired of it and apparently I have no patience to go to an actual hair professional. I also took a shower so it’s still wet but it’ll floof up once dry and look better. My head feels like three pounds lighter and also I have a headache from not sleeping and stressing out about camping now. YAY. ok bye

too sexy for YOU

too sexy for YOU

Me! At Ocean Shores!
I’m yelling at my mom to take the damn picture already because I tried to do a pretty pose but kept sinking into the wet sand and nearly falling over.

Me! At Ocean Shores!

I’m yelling at my mom to take the damn picture already because I tried to do a pretty pose but kept sinking into the wet sand and nearly falling over.

Well I went ahead and chopped about 10cm off but, er, you can’t really tell so have this instead. My webcam sucks anyway.

Well I went ahead and chopped about 10cm off but, er, you can’t really tell so have this instead. My webcam sucks anyway.

I am this close. My fucking hair has been annoying me all day.

I am this close. My fucking hair has been annoying me all day.

Tags: my face

I try not to whine much on here because … well, mostly because I’ve been told over and over that nobody likes a negative person, and if there’s something I’m consistently, it’s negative. I can’t remember a time in my life where I wasn’t. Yes, even in childhood. 
So, after a while (30+ years) of being told to look at the bright side and be more positive, you get alright at hiding your true feelings. But, this is the closest I have to a private space in a public forum, and every once in a while, I just have to say that I feel very down and hopeless, again, for no fucking reason. 
Things are good in my life. But that’s not how this shit works, is it. 

I try not to whine much on here because … well, mostly because I’ve been told over and over that nobody likes a negative person, and if there’s something I’m consistently, it’s negative. I can’t remember a time in my life where I wasn’t. Yes, even in childhood. 

So, after a while (30+ years) of being told to look at the bright side and be more positive, you get alright at hiding your true feelings. But, this is the closest I have to a private space in a public forum, and every once in a while, I just have to say that I feel very down and hopeless, again, for no fucking reason. 

Things are good in my life. But that’s not how this shit works, is it. 

Tags: my face

Channeling my inner goth.

Channeling my inner goth.

Tags: my face

I have absolutely no personal style beyond jeans & novelty shirt/sleeveless shirt. So now I’m at Kohl’s, trying to buy clothes and I am frozen! I have no idea where to start even. Wtf should I wear?

I have absolutely no personal style beyond jeans & novelty shirt/sleeveless shirt. So now I’m at Kohl’s, trying to buy clothes and I am frozen! I have no idea where to start even. Wtf should I wear?

This isn’t going on facebook. I still have people on there who think I’m skinny.

This isn’t going on facebook. I still have people on there who think I’m skinny.

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I’ve been feeling old, fat and ugly lately and I need to snap out of it somehow. I’m not fishing for compliments, I can get plenty of those from the middle-aged men I’ve collected on facebook (where did they come from?). I guess I just wanted a visual of my inner life on my blog.

I’ve been feeling old, fat and ugly lately and I need to snap out of it somehow. I’m not fishing for compliments, I can get plenty of those from the middle-aged men I’ve collected on facebook (where did they come from?). I guess I just wanted a visual of my inner life on my blog.