Well I went ahead and chopped about 10cm off but, er, you can’t really tell so have this instead. My webcam sucks anyway.

Well I went ahead and chopped about 10cm off but, er, you can’t really tell so have this instead. My webcam sucks anyway.

I am this close. My fucking hair has been annoying me all day.

I am this close. My fucking hair has been annoying me all day.

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I try not to whine much on here because … well, mostly because I’ve been told over and over that nobody likes a negative person, and if there’s something I’m consistently, it’s negative. I can’t remember a time in my life where I wasn’t. Yes, even in childhood. 
So, after a while (30+ years) of being told to look at the bright side and be more positive, you get alright at hiding your true feelings. But, this is the closest I have to a private space in a public forum, and every once in a while, I just have to say that I feel very down and hopeless, again, for no fucking reason. 
Things are good in my life. But that’s not how this shit works, is it. 

I try not to whine much on here because … well, mostly because I’ve been told over and over that nobody likes a negative person, and if there’s something I’m consistently, it’s negative. I can’t remember a time in my life where I wasn’t. Yes, even in childhood. 

So, after a while (30+ years) of being told to look at the bright side and be more positive, you get alright at hiding your true feelings. But, this is the closest I have to a private space in a public forum, and every once in a while, I just have to say that I feel very down and hopeless, again, for no fucking reason. 

Things are good in my life. But that’s not how this shit works, is it. 

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Channeling my inner goth.

Channeling my inner goth.

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I have absolutely no personal style beyond jeans & novelty shirt/sleeveless shirt. So now I’m at Kohl’s, trying to buy clothes and I am frozen! I have no idea where to start even. Wtf should I wear?

I have absolutely no personal style beyond jeans & novelty shirt/sleeveless shirt. So now I’m at Kohl’s, trying to buy clothes and I am frozen! I have no idea where to start even. Wtf should I wear?

This isn’t going on facebook. I still have people on there who think I’m skinny.

This isn’t going on facebook. I still have people on there who think I’m skinny.

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I’ve been feeling old, fat and ugly lately and I need to snap out of it somehow. I’m not fishing for compliments, I can get plenty of those from the middle-aged men I’ve collected on facebook (where did they come from?). I guess I just wanted a visual of my inner life on my blog.

I’ve been feeling old, fat and ugly lately and I need to snap out of it somehow. I’m not fishing for compliments, I can get plenty of those from the middle-aged men I’ve collected on facebook (where did they come from?). I guess I just wanted a visual of my inner life on my blog.

Shiny

Shiny

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Me with my dog Pepper (shot by my son)

Me with my dog Pepper (shot by my son)

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Wow your hair is even longer than mine now. Sometimes it annoys me, too, but I like that I can wear ponytails and braids and stuff.

Once it gets into my arm pits, or gets caught in the car door, or I put my elbow on it trying to get out of bed, that’s when it comes off. 

This is how short it was the last time I cut it, a bit over two years back. Since then I lost about 30 lbs and then gained it all back with a vengeance (and an extra 10lbs), so it would look even dumber now. I just need to take a few inches off and put some layers in or something.

When did my hair get so stinking long? It’s starting to get annoying again and I’m ready to chop it off but my face is so fat now that I don’t think short hair would look good. pffffffff fatty problems :/ What would a good cut for me be?

When did my hair get so stinking long? It’s starting to get annoying again and I’m ready to chop it off but my face is so fat now that I don’t think short hair would look good. pffffffff fatty problems :/ What would a good cut for me be?

Why is it freezing outside? Literally freezing temperatures? WHERE IS MY SPRING?

Why is it freezing outside? Literally freezing temperatures? WHERE IS MY SPRING?

Well, I *did* get out of bed but then my bank called me to say they cancelled my debit card and are sending me a new one in roughly a week, so now I have to change the info on allllllll my auto payments and then I had to walk the dogs in pouring rain so overall, not worth it. One good thing - coffee. 

Well, I *did* get out of bed but then my bank called me to say they cancelled my debit card and are sending me a new one in roughly a week, so now I have to change the info on allllllll my auto payments and then I had to walk the dogs in pouring rain so overall, not worth it. One good thing - coffee.