Why is it that I always have the worst sleep when I have to get up early? I kept waking up a sweaty mess despite having the window open and the fan on and I dreamed that a building collapsed around me and I had to live in a sort of cave underground for almost four months before I got rescued (and my son was with me!). This is the second time in two weeks I dreamed about a building falling down around me, wonder what my subconscious is trying to tell me. But yeah, I’m tired and cranky and still somewhat shaken from what was a legit nightmare.

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Funny how you can think you’re friends with someone and then they just move across the county without warning and without saying goodbye. Between that and mortgage people not calling me back I’m starting to wonder if I have a big “just ignore me” tattooed on my forehead.

Just had a sobbing, gasping, hiding-in-my-bedroom breakdown, because the kid dropped some eggs on the kitchen floor (they were boiled and peeled, he was supposed to eat them). Some days you just don’t know what will set you off. 

Should I just not sleep? It’s almost 8am, if I go to bed now I’ll sleep til 2. If I stay up, I’ll probably crash in the afternoon anyway because I’m old and tired. If I knew the rain would stop I’d stay up so I could take my dogs for a walk but if it’ll just keep raining I might as well sleep :/

I put on Scrubs for some light background noise and here I am, half an hour later, sobbing my eyes out. 

Experiment in progress at my house: How long will my kid stay up if I don’t send him to bed. Keep in mind that he didn’t get out of bed until 1pm. It is now 2:20 am and I’m pretty sure he’s still awake. 

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I’m uncomfortably hot but I’m too lazy to stretch to turn off the heater which is literally one foot out of reach. When exactly has my life turned into this?

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Dear lord, Holden, you are such a fucking awkward moron, what does she see in you? A threesome, really? 

Time to rewatch Chasing Amy. Haven’t punished myself in a while. 

You fucking tracer!!

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Really? The Prince of Egypt ends after the crossing of the sea??? HAHAHA, why are you people so happy, your troubles are only just beginning!!

Jeremy Clarkson making Star Trek references :D 

My world is complete. 

My mom sent me a giant box of German sweets. Unfortunately I’ve completely lost my desire for sugar in the last few days. :/ Everything *looks* delicious but I take one bite and want to puke. I’m sure my sweet tooth will be back in time but it’s still sad. 

I really want a grilled cheese, but joke’s on me, there is neither bread nor cheese in the house because, in a hilarious attempt at ~dieting~, I haven’t bought either of those things today even though we were almost completely out of food. Instead I have … well, apples? I don’t know what all I have, I forgot, but I can’t make a grilled cheese out of any of it!

oscarwildething said: Cabin fever?

So bad, omg! I can’t be in one place for long anyway. I’ve been moving and traveling all my life. I’ve been in this apartment for one year now and I’m going out of my mind!! So when I have to stay in just he fucking apartment, it gets magnified. I actually just took the dogs to he nearby park and let them run around for a bit. I feel marginally better. What I really need is a van and lots of gas money though.

I didn’t go anywhere today and didn’t even walk the dogs because it was *pouring* out but now I feel so restless and angry!! I can’t do this, I can’t be in the house all day. I want to punch the walls. I’ve already spot cleaned the carpet, cleaned the kitchen, baked a cake, did all the laundry (washed & folded) and ARGH I feel like I have ants under my skin. I have like … staying home anxiety. 

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